single life. what is it like? its been so long i can hardly remember. actually, i dont remember it at all. my big stupid problem is that i get attached too easily and at the end of the day, it ends up as a pile of rubbish placed by the bin to be thrown out. ye-ah.
SO! i've decided to have no commitments, no responsibilities and a care-free life for me; relationship-wise anyways. as my mom quoted a pastor, "when you are single, open ur two eyes BIG BIG.. when married, close one eye" which is true, right? Well, in my case, i think i shall close both of them for a bit now.. i'm tired of being in a relationship. Tired of feeling guilty when i go out with a guy friend, tired of fighting to prove a point, tired of worrying what he is thinking.. just plain tired. I've had enough of arguements for the time being so yeah. thats it.
Funny thing is, altho my resolution is made, i'm not sure if i can maintain it. You see, i'm the kind of person who falls in love easily.. and unfortunately, i also fall out of love easily. Once i see that its going nowhere, i just lose interest. Maybe its not really love? Maybe i just think i'm in love? well. maybe. And this makes me a dangerous person to be in a relationship with. So i just want to keep the idea of having another relationship away from my thoughts at the moment. I dont wanna hurt anyone anymore and neither do i want to get hurt. Coz when i love, i truly love fiercely.. which makes me really vulnerable which is a feeling i do not really welcome. Ahhh! screw this, i dont even know half of what i'm saying right now and so, off i go for an interview. Bye bye.
-lyn-
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